Want Perpetuates Want

ABY101209e by jvrsta There are times when I can’t escape from want. Want perpetuates want until all I can think of is taking or being taken. Lately it’s been the latter. The most mundane movements crackle with the electricity of my desire for it. With each moment want increases exponentially until it consumes my entire [...]

June 2nd, 2010 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Self-Consciousness

I used to think I was an exhibitionist. I still do think that to a point, but lately I’ve been so reserved and worried about the way others perceive me I can hardly call myself an exhibitionist. I’m more self-conscious now than I have ever been before in my life. I’m less outrageous, trying to [...]

April 30th, 2010 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Body Hair

I’ve always had a love/hate relationship with body hair, I think that’s pretty common. I’ve had periods of time where I can’t stand any of it, shaving my pits, pubes, and legs once they show even a slight bit of stubble, plucking my eye brows often freakishly goth-thin so that they are barely there (ah, [...]

November 14th, 2009 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Finding Harmony in My Gender Fluidity

There are so many ways to play with and express gender and gender deviance, from subtle to in-your-face and everywhere in between. What I’ve been trying to figure out in the last few weeks is how to reconcile my femme and fagette identities into a conceivable whole. I’m often not sure it’s even possible, but [...]

March 14th, 2009 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Relationship Questions

Of us, taken by me, late 2006 Found these questions answered by Thursday’s Child and thought they were kind of cute and may be a good way to jump-start my writing. I have so many posts swimming in my head, but am having a difficult time articulating them. Plus, doesn’t everyone want to read about [...]

February 20th, 2009 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Uncovering Flesh to Find Truth

I feel like I’m discovering a part of myself I buried away, and mostly just because of a different environment. When just about everything around me is changing I feel the most at home. I thrive on change, as I am always in a constant state of change. I dressed up last night with my [...]

January 24th, 2009 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Femme Fagette (HNT)

Yes, yes, it’s not Thursday anymore, but, I don’t subscribe to your limiting ideas of the days it’s acceptable to post a Half Nekkid Thursday post, so I’m posting mine on Friday! Plus, I’ve been moving and I wasn’t really online much at all yesterday, so cut me some slack! Okay, well, now that that’s [...]

January 22nd, 2009 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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