Civil War

I feel as though I have warring factions within me, aching for battle and unsure of what to do, trying to figure out who comes out on top, but there is no “on top” to come out onto, not that I would have it if there were. In a world of innumerable options I [...]

February 5th, 2010 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Death, Rebirth, and Submission

Clutched by notoca
When the triad first started we talked a lot about how it would change my relationship with Onyx. We had to get rid of the monogamous-type relationship we had developed over the years and move into an open polyamorous one and then also to incorporating Marla into the mix. I talked [...]

January 22nd, 2010 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Breathe and Let Go

via Squall Leonhartt cropped by me for use in this post
I feel his hand cover my mouth and know what is about to come. Taking a deep breath through my nose quickly before he pinches that shut, my eyes fly open to look into his as he looms above me. My hands are [...]

January 19th, 2010 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Rediscoveries

Now that I am somewhat outside of the relationships that have consumed me and took over my life for the last eight or so months I find myself getting more in touch with my needs. I am glad to have so much alone time and time to focus on me as me rather than [...]

January 5th, 2010 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Full Circle

via www.tendrebulle.fr via art or porn
I always know it’s been a good fucking session when I’m fuzzy on the details the next day or, even better, right after.
We’ve been off for a while, uncertain, not fitting right, just not quite working together the way we used to. The sex has always been great, but [...]

April 13th, 2009 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Craving Control and Lack Thereof

Our life has settled far from where I thought it would when I first started this blog. Onyx and I were trying for an Owner/cuntpet relationship, which was originally the basis of this blog, along with erotica and such. We were struggling to work in that dynamic, both of us thinking that’s what [...]

March 26th, 2009 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Structures and Differences

Onyx and I have had many conversations since Marla came into the mix, understandably so. Sometimes things like these happen at the times you least expect them to, but they usually come at the right times for your life. The universe decided that now was the time for us to get a third [...]

March 12th, 2009 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Back to Basics: My BDSM Desires

Number 184 from The Adipositivity Project
Since we have dismissed the Dominus/submissive power structure from our relationship I have been thinking a lot about what worked and what didn’t with us in those roles and what I want in general. While I enjoy where we are now, and think that is what works best for [...]

January 8th, 2009 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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New Year's Eve HNT

For the HNT this week we’re supposed to choose our favorite HNT from the year. I’ve done 18 since I started participating in Half-Nekkid Thursdays back at the end of July. I can’t just decide on one, so I’m going to show a few that I particularly loved.
Scarlet Seductions

My first HNT that I [...]

December 31st, 2008 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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Fallen into Place

Yesterday (the 19th) was our three year collaring anniversary, though we’ve known each other nearly four years and met face-to-face numerous times before he collared me, he waited until the right moment to bring me that collar. It was accompanied by Norwegian chocolates which he brought from Salt Lake City to Ashland, Oregon (where [...]

November 20th, 2008 by Scarlet Lotus St. Syr
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